“Shame is a soul eating emotion.”
~C.G. Jung
“Shame derives its power from being unspeakable.”
~Brené Brown
Shame. It’s such an uncomfortable feeling. So uncomfortable that you may not even want to read this post. You think that if you leave it hidden in the shadows, outside of conscious awareness, maybe, just maybe, you can pretend it’s not there.
But it is. And for some of us, it’s dug in deep.
If shame stays where it is, unseen and unexplored, it will continue to affect you. How? It’s behind the self-critical voice in your head, many unsatisfying dynamics in relationships, feelings of lack and unworthiness, and choices that keep you from fully living.
Shame is so personal! It’s a painful feeling of humiliation—that you’ve done something wrong or that there’s something disgraceful or embarrassing about you. It’s the secret emotion that can sit in you like a poison.
And the last thing you want to do is bring it out in the open. You think that all that will do is highlight your worst fears about yourself.
But here’s the possibility for you—the light that can begin to untangle shame:
If you explore it skillfully, if you navigate shame with wisdom and heart, you find tenderness, compassion, courageous vulnerability, and the relief that comes from no longer hiding from yourself—or keeping yourself hidden from others and the world.
You move from feeling oh, so separate and alienated to being more at ease with yourself and your own experience. The boundaries that disconnect you from everyone and everything begin to fall away. Almost like being born anew, you are open, light, and available to life.
You can make the choice to let your pain rule you by keeping it in the shadows. Or you can befriend, explore, and welcome it into the light of conscious awareness. How? Here are 10 potentially life-changing ways to move through shame.
Getting to Know Shame
1. Be a courageous explorer
If you’re just beginning to explore shame, you’re going into foreign territory. Just like the ancient adventurers who took to the sea not knowing what they would find, be courageous, curious, and open.
And when it comes to pain, discover the most compassionate place within you to receive it.
Practice: Set the stage for your exploration of shame. Bring your attention inside, and touch into the qualities of curiosity, wonder, openness, and compassion that are natural to who you are. Find them, then stay with feeling them for a while.
2. Find the gap
You might be very used to feeling shame, but you may not know it well. In fact, you may have been trying to avoid it at all costs because it’s so painful.
But here we take a different approach by befriending your experience. What is shame exactly? How does it feel? How does it appear in your thoughts about the past and yourself?
Answering these questions requires you to step back from being completely consumed by shame so you can gain some psychological distance. It’s the gap that begins to set you free. Imagine you’re studying an object you’ve never seen before to figure out what it does. Just like that, create a bit of space between you and your experience of feeling shame.
Now you’re relating to shame in a new way. You can study it, inquire about it, and see what it is—this feeling that’s had such an impact on you.
Practice: Find a small gap between you and shame. See that you can observe your experience and be curious about what you discover.
3. What’s the story?
Shame doesn’t appear from nowhere. It’s a form of conditioning that inhabits your mind, heart, body, and spirit. Maybe you were somehow made to feel ashamed of yourself when you were young – ashamed of who you are, your level of intelligence, your body.
There might be a story of shame that you’ve carried for a long time, but it’s actually a role you’ve taken on that is optional. Start to tell yourself that this shame story doesn’t have to define you.
Remember that who you are is not this story. Your essence is whole, not separate from anything, and boundlessly free.
Practice: Stand up and feel yourself in that familiar story of shame. Yes, right now! Just try it. Now, take a big step to one side and leave the story behind. Feel yourself minus the story. This is the possibility for you.
4. How does shame live in your body?
Every emotion has a physical component to it. Getting to know shame includes knowing how it lives in your body.
It may take some time to discover the physical experience of shame because it’s become so commonplace to you. Get quiet and bring your attention to your body. Then notice any physical sensations and places of numbness. You don’t need to do anything about them.
This is an exercise in simply meeting in open awareness what has been there anyway. It’s about making friends with the physical part of shame.
When you realize you don’t need to live the story of shame and you become aware of the sensations, the heaviness of this identity begins to dissolve. It’s the road to freedom.
Practice: As much as possible, a hundred times a day if necessary, bring your attention into your body and just be with whatever is happening. There’s no need to do anything; just simply be.
Going Deeper
5. How you speak to yourself
Our inner self-talk can be so painfully harsh. And if you look at the root of what drives it, you’ll find shame, that feeling that there’s something terribly wrong—or worse—about you. Once you begin meeting the shame directly—by not being so captured by the story and feeling the physical sensations—this way of speaking to yourself starts to not even make sense anymore.
Let’s tell the truth. Are you actually that incompetent, inadequate so-and-so you think you are? If you look at these inner statements with the objective eyes of a scientist, you’ll be able to punch holes in them immediately.
By now, this negative self-talk is a habit that needs your attention, and the more intelligent focus you give it, the more it will unravel. Commit to recognizing this voice and letting its reign over you diminish.
Practice: Start by assuming that this damaging inner voice isn’t accurate and doesn’t serve. This is the truth. At least once every day, turn your attention away from these self-critical thoughts and let them float on by like clouds. Be the sky—vast, empty, and serene. Start to live here as much as possible and the critical thoughts begin to lose their power.
6. Know how and why you isolate
Living with shame is lonely and isolating. It makes you believe that no one would want to get close to you, which justifies your pushing them away. How do you do that? By being critical and judgmental of others.
Recognizing the urge to isolate is essential to moving through shame. Because it is a sign that your shame identity has taken charge. When you find yourself judging others and feeling separate, this is your golden moment to begin asking questions about your experience. What story do you believe? How do you feel in your body?
Not judging shame and welcoming it instead is the beginning of forming a new, healthy relationship—with yourself. Then you don’t need to be critical of others or push them away. You’re more available, authentic, and courageously vulnerable. And others will love you for it.
Practice: Recognize when you judge others and realize this is about you: it makes you feel separate. Is shame at the root of this need to separate? Inquire into what you’re thinking and feeling. Realize the possibility of a true connection with others.
7. Is there fear there?
Shame and fear often go hand in hand. You’re afraid of being seen for who you are. And at the same time, you fear being alone. You’re afraid you’re damaged goods, doomed to a life of misery.
As you get to know shame, become aware of various fears that may be lurking. Bring fear, too, out of the shadows and meet it lovingly.
Practice: Check to see if fear is present. Let down your resistance and allow it in, especially how it appears in your body. Like a long-lost child returning home, embrace the fear. Let it be there for as long as it wants to.
Moving Forward
8. Find the strength in being vulnerable
Vulnerability gets a bad rap these days. But what it actually offers you is the relief from having to hide from yourself, the simplicity of just being as you are without having to change anything.
Whatever you feel is your present moment experience. Resisting it creates endless suffering, and welcoming it in is the path to inner peace. This is the medicine for the secret of shame.
Be as you are. Not in the story of who you think you are that is denigrating and destructive—you’ve lived there long enough. Instead, shift your attention away from these thoughts, and allow your current experience as it is. These sensations…this breath…touching…hearing…looking…speaking…
It’s so relaxing because you don’t have to hide or grasp. You can just be.
Practice: Begin to get comfortable being with whatever you are experiencing in any given moment. Start with just a few moments until you see that it’s OK, that whatever you’re afraid will happen, won’t. Then, more and more, let yourself be.
9. Sacred honesty—with yourself
When you live in shame, you are constantly lying to yourself. You draw yourself into a trance that makes you believe you are inadequate, unworthy, and just plain wrong. The truth? It’s just plain inaccurate.
Healing from shame invites radical honesty. Are you up for it?
Whenever you are feeling separate and lacking, question your experience. Find the gap (#2 above), and recognize the thoughts and feelings in your body that have taken hold.
Then realize that who you are is so much more than this identity. To be perfectly honest, you are whole, unbroken, and infinitely at peace. Keep returning here. Become more and more transparent so the light of truth shines through.
Practice: Investigate your direct experience with a discerning eye to see what is true and what is false. Live in the truth of yourself as whole, full, pure, and capable.
10. Wide open heart
Shame is all about limitation, holding back, and keeping yourself separate and isolated. And where is your heart? Wounded, stuck, and closed.
Begin to live with a heart wide open. Move your attention outside of your head to notice the beauty and tenderness around you. It’s been there all along, you just haven’t noticed. Let yourself be touched by the simple experiences of daily life.
Shame is a filter that keeps you from life, and dissolving the filter leaves you available and receptive. Without even trying, you begin to notice love and appreciation. Where before you held back, now you engage.
Recovering from shame opens you to being fully alive!
Practice: Find within you the courage to begin to open your heart. Instead of being absorbed in shame, experience things—and people—with fresh eyes. When you notice that you are closed, open…open…open…
What About You?
Are you caught in shame? Believe me, you are not alone. Have you discovered how to move through it? I’d love to hear…and if you’re reading by email, please click here to comment.
My husband is feeling deep shame due to an affair with a work colleague. Initially he denied the relationship altogether and for months continued to lie and see this 16 years younger woman, promising her he loved her and would leave me. Their relationship escalated when her marriage fell apart (though her husband still is unaware of the affair) and two months ago my husband left. He went to her but was on my doorstep, sorry the next day and broke off with her that week. He has returned home and left five times in the last two months, sometimes due to texting her to see if she is ‘ok’. Each time he stays away a week, says he has not seen her and misses me.
His bags are currently packed again as he says he can’t live with me due to his guilt and shame. He is highly emotional and angers easily, saying our marriage of almost 30 years is unfixable.
We have tried counselling – each separately for ten months (which is continuing) and together for five months which has stopped.
He can’t get beyond the idea of ‘punishing’ himself and is searching for an apartment to move into but remains angry that I have told our sons and two best friends about his affair.
I want to work on our marriage but am losing motivation after being treated so poorly for 18 months now. Should I let him go to work out what he wants? He contends the reason for the affair was because I have been overly critical of him and she made him feel funny and smart. It appears she has moved on because he would not commit to her and has broken off with her at least six times in six months – mostly due to me finding out about continued contact.
At times I want to end the marriage because I think this idea of ‘punishing’ himself is really his way of saying he is no longer in love with me. Other times I want to forgive him because I do love him and if she is out of the picture why can’t we make it work? We have been together since we are 16 and would say we have had a really good marriage. His mother’s death last year caused him to go into a depression and allowed him to feel he was entitled to the affair.
Will he ever overcome his shame or am I wasting my time?
Thank you for writing, Jos. I don’t know the answer to your question – and in fact no one does. He is walking his own path regarding his shame and only time will tell what the outcome will be.
What’s important to know is that you can’t fix or change him. What you can continue to do, which it sounds like you are doing, is to look at what you are contributing to the struggles in your relationship and work on these. For example, if you have been overly critical, you can look at the roots of that within yourself and take responsibility and apologize if that feels right. You can also express to him your desire to work on the relationship and what it would mean for you if it ends. These are things you have control over.
I appreciate how painful this all must be. There is a lot to untangle in what you’ve described, and it is potentially a beautiful time of growth for both of you.
Thank you for your reply Gail. You are totally right in that I can’t fix my husband or change him.
Unfortunately things became heated on Monday and for the first time I asked him to leave and literally threw him out. The last five times it was his choice to leave. He is now staying with a friend of ours and remains angry at me.
After not hearing from him for five days, I contacted him today and he blamed me for everything. Said for the first time that he did love his affair partner and found it very hard to end the relationship with her and only did so because the few people who know about it, told him to stand by his family.
He told me he can’t fix our marriage and will be renting somewhere permanent next week. I feel devastated as this is not what I want. The man I married no longer seems to be there. The harder I try the more he pulls away so I am planning on backing away. As you said he needs time to work through his emotions. He believes I will never forgive him and stop bringing up all the mistakes he has made. I am finding this difficult, partly due to the months of deceit.
What will it take for my husband to stop running away? He says he is depressed and cannot do anything for me as he hates himself. Sadly I feel like he has given up and wonder if I should too.
Stay as grounded as possible in yourself, Jos, as this situation unfolds. I know it’s challenging. If he stops running, it will be his decision. I’ll be thinking of you and wish you well….
I am ashamed of my recent risky; sexual behavior with men when drunk?What do I do?
The best healing is to live as you truly want to live moving forward, Vezna. It sounds like getting drunk sets you up to make decisions you regret. Don’t drink too much so you can make decisions that are better aligned with what you want for yourself. If this continues to be a problem, I suggest seeing a counselor in your local area.
Dealing with shame in myself after 50 years and 25 years of marriage and now it is coming to the fore…it has affected every part of my life to the extent I do not know myself…now I am on the journey of getting to know the real me and dealing with all this…as you say from an observer point of view…voicing my feelings and opinions (having conversations with myself)… asthis was totally blocked out as a child growing up form the time I was born. In-utero traumas and abuse…etc…now it is boldly going where I have not been before to self discovery and being happy loving free and fun…
Hi Ricky,
Beautiful path you are on…. May you journey well…
I do not know where to begin my healing. I am ashamed of how I have hurt family members. They have forgiven me but I cannot forgive myself. Trauma is my only excuse for my uncharacteristic behaviors. I now punish myself by not taking good care of myself, I did not physically hurt people but nonetheless I hurt them.
Mary, learn from whatever happened then, when you’re ready, make the choice to live fully now and not according to what happened in the past. You deserve to be kind to yourself – not because you’re special but because we all deserve kindness. It’s the natural way of being with ourselves when we stop listening to the painful stories running in our minds.
I feel ashamed with my actions especially when they are called out in front of a group. I feel a collective judgement and it puts me into a funk of poor self talk, self sabotage, sadness, feeling lost. I am part of a group mentor ship working towards starting my own virtual functional medicine practice and when I was called out in front of the group for a question I had and it has triggered shame. Now I feel so self conscious in the group, scared to talk, scared to ask questions, scared to be myself. I also feel hurt, angry, and unworthy to fulfill my dreams of having a thriving virtual practice. The story of shame that has been going on in my has my attention, I am not sure when it started but I am ready to tell myself a new story. I am just not sure how to find the gap, how to listen to the inside and give it what it needs to move on… I keep journaling, meditating, and trying to give myself space to let myself get back to normal, but it is not working.
There may be some unexplored feelings in the shadows of your experience, Rachel, that are asking for your loving attention – for healing and integration. When patterns are recurrent and feel stuck, this is usually the case. You can check out the archives here. I have written a lot about emotions – maybe some of those articles will help you.
https://gailbrenner.com/archives/?showall=1
I’ve been cheating on my wife for many years with prostitutes and sugar babies, watching porn, sexting with strangers online and this online chat has been growing increasingly depraved to the point where I’ve been including my brother and kids in the written fantasies. My wife knows about these things and I’ve done an online counseling program to try to help myself. I didn’t keep up the work that I should have and once again I ended up inappropriately sexting and was caught by my wife again.
I realise I have to do the hard work that I should have been doing (& I’ve started) but I’m really stuck with talking meaningfully to my wife and so I don’t say anything which is making her even angrier. How do I push my shame aside and be kinder to myself yet at the same time open up and talk to my wife? I have zero ideas what to say to her. Please help?
Hi Alex,
What’s being asked for regarding your wife is to begin to rebuild trust. She needs to know that you understand how all of this has impacted her. So feel into how you think she must feel and reflect that back to her, saying something like, “I can’t imagine how hard this has been for you.” At some point when you’re ready, you’ll need to be able to listen to her express her pain to you.
Good for you for focusing on your healing. You say you are doing the hard work, and I’m wondering if you mean on your own or with a professional. I recommend the offerings of this practice: https://www.compulsionsolutions.com/
Wishing you the best on your journey.
My shame is that I moved to another state to help with elderly mother at my family’s request. I wasn’t equipped to handle my mom’s abuse and she ended up putting me out ( she agreed to accept my help). I was sleeping in my car and the apartment library until my sister who loved in another state told my brother what was happening. He let me stay with him and his wife until she packed my things because she wanted her home “back”. I was coming back and forth to my moms because she missed me. It was like an abusive relationship. Well I ended up sleeping in my car and going to the gym to shower before work. I found my aunt who lived around the corner from my mom but I didn’t completely feel comfortable there. So my ex offered to shelter me, I’m in my 60’s and feel like a complete failure and like my sister said” I didn’t have a plan b. So I don’t want to be in contact with my family because my road back to having my own home and job has been slow to come. I feel they are judging me while rubbing in my face about how much money they’re getting when they retire soon. I’m happy for them but mad at myself for ending up homeless. I’m in therapy and have a plan but it’s not coming fast enough. Why do I feel better when I have no contact with my family? They keep texting and calling me by the way…
I’m sorry for these challenges you’ve had. Your question is: Why do I feel better when I have no contact with my family?
I don’t know the answer. This is not the type of question I can help you with. What do you discover about this question when you go within and ask yourself?
Best wishes to you…
I don’t kno30 year w how to overcome the shame. It has built up from pre-school sexual abuse, reinforced by trauma, bullying, neglect, rape, and abuse in my school years, and ended in a 30-year marriage to an abusive, alcoholic narcissist who convinced me that I was worthless and deserved to be abused. Shame has been constantly reinforced by repeated trauma for over 60 years. All though I’m very lonely, it has been safer for me to have no friends or family. People are too dangerous and I can’t trust my judgment. I don’t know what to do.
Hi Ann,
Thank you for sharing here. Given your history, it sounds intelligent that you have no friends or family as that is how you feel safe. I totally understand that.
I can’t give you any magical words in a few sentences to help you. What you describe here deserves time, love, and care to unwind. And you don’t have to do it alone. I suggest you find a therapist who you think you will be able to trust and begin the process of healing. You may also appreciate the community that has developed around the group events I offer: https://gailbrenner.com/events/.
I wish you the very best in your path to healing.
My shame is I have made the greatest error of my life a few years ago. I neglected my hamster – I don’t know why and I don’t know how long I ignored her but it was long enough she was weak from hunger and thirst when I stopped being selfish! I have had so many pets before and I love animals so I don’t understand why I did it but now I am the worst person in the world. I am pregnant so I am struggling with my guilt of mistreating an innocent animal. How do I get past this? Am I an awful person? I know I should not have pets if I can’t take care of them but I was lonely and I have had such good relationship with animals before this. I don’t feel like I can tell anyone as they would think I’m awful and that I shouldn’t have children. I need to heal but is what I did even forgiveable? Am I the worst person in the world?? Please help
Hi Emma,
I appreciate you taking the risk to share what happened here. Yes, what you’ve done is forgivable = as is everything when we bring care and authenticity to it. I suggest using what happened as a way to heal. And to do that the invitation is for you to look deeply at what happened that made you neglect your hamster. This is the only way that you can be conscious enough now so that it doesn’t happen again. You’re asked to take an honest look at the choices you made so that you can now do better.
As you do this exploration, have as much compassion for yourself as you can. You were stuck in a mindset of some kind and unaligned with your deepest values and desires. We all experience that to some degree or another. Get clear about your values and desires, and have the intention to be conscious enough in your life now and moving forward so you can live according to them. Contemplate the kind of mother you want to be, then put that into action when your baby comes.
Everything serves. And what happened a few years ago has awakened you to the desire to live a life of consciousness, care, and love. That is what you can express moving forward.
Best wishes to you…
Thank you for this very good article.
I have been raised by a narcissistic mother. Which means that I have not developed as my true self but more in the direction of the fixed preset agenda of my mother. Her agenda is based on seeking her own needs and not the needs of her children. I realise this now, being 34 years old, and I’m seeing a therapist to heal my trauma and live true to myself. As I have always resisted her dominant attitude I have had a lot of arguments with her and I’ve been shamed a lot by her.
Last week I was drinking alcohol with friends. I cannot handle alcohol well. It feels like when I drink I can more easily be true to myself as I feel the insecurity of being myself less. I was having a lot of fun according to my friends but I don’t remember a lot and did some irresponsible things like damaging a couch with a sigaret, I’ve been video calling a married man I am friends with in the middle of the night and I’ve been flirting with a friend which I don’t like. Just to feel loved.
I feel so much shame as I don’t remember well what I was doing. I’ve seen videos in which I look awfully drunk and am now organising to fix the couch.
Luckily my friends are very sweet to me but I feel disgusted with myself. I guess I should stop drinking alcohol and practice self love and self forgiveness as you mentioned in the article.
I’m curious for your opinion though. Thank you :).
I don’t really have an opinion, Iris. I am here to support your inner wisdom – your deepest knowing about your path, and here it is:
“I guess I should stop drinking alcohol and practice self love and self forgiveness as you mentioned in the article.”
Wishing you well on the path….